I'm Just a Girl

okay so the douchbaggery continues, and continues and continues. I am completely numb at moments, but really how does one react to all of this.

please I'm just a girl. I have a heart, and I want all the same things every little girl wants, love, true love. I get that this KID is a sick sick person, who will, if life works out right, get his..thank you karama. But please stop telling me "you're a strong girl." , "You deserve better than him." ,"He is a douchbag.." so on and so forth. I know I shouldn't let him get to me, I know he is a worthless piece that will some day meet his match. But i still have a heart, that hurts just like everyone elses when they get shit on. Give me five minutes to feel like shit, to a shed a tear or two because thats how I feel. I do not care if I shouldn't let him have my tears, great I know that, but you know what I AM HURTING! Maybe only for 5 minutes, but fuck allow me my 5 minutes before you start telling me to stick it too him stand up straight and don't let him get to you.

Just let me have a moment to be vulnerable...im sick of having to be tough-its too tough.

Dear P.F.C. Fake

Dear P.F.C Fake,

No matter the excuse, truth or not this is the end. the simple fact that I do not trust your words means that this is the end. I wish you had been real, you had potential, and I would have given you everything and anything. I have tried hard enough and given you far too much, but you cannot have my happiness, I refuse to let you take that from me. I'll take back the pieces of my heart now, thank you, those belong to me.


Never Yours,
That girl you'll wish you never lied to.